When I get sad, I want to eat

I feel very out of wack today. I think that it's my period- it tends to wipe me out like this and makes me super weepy when it's on it's approach, but again, I feel out of control and I feel like I've totally fucked things up with Erik. And I don't really know how to make it better.

A day of Fasting

So today I'm trying to fast. We'll see how well this works. I'm not exercising today, so this should be a low energy output day. The scale went back up this morning- I'm not sure why. Water retention? Constipation? We'll see if a day of fasting helps out with that. I ought to add a day of splurging, too, but I'm not entirely comfortable with that.

Cross Fit 101

So last night i went to cross-fit. For the first time. And yeah, I worked out hard, and I almost felt sick. I really enjoyed the dynamics of the group, though, so I'll go back and try it out for a month. I feel better today than I've felt in months. So I think the exercises help with the depression.

My baseline:
500m rowing
10 pull ups
20 push ups
30 sit ups
40 squats

Did all of that in 7:54 seconds.

Seasonal Fruit

As I write this, I'm eating a "seasonal fruit salad" in January. And- it includes fruit that I've seen in this fruit salad year round. Granted, I'm in California- so there's no season where there isn't fruit. But if you were to be truthful, seasonal local fruit right now would be- oranges, pears, apples, grapes. What I have in my salad is watermelon, cantelope, honeydew, strawberries and grapes. And they don't really taste that great.

If only I could cook for myself 100% of the time- I'm sure my food would be much tastier. We went to the farmer's market this sunday and got some very tasty pink lady apples. I'm really enjoying having the abilty to go to the market- I think I'll look for a farmer's co-op that we can also use.

Good Day Today

I ran 3 miles in golden gate park, had an omelette for lunch, and am almost finished reading " The Hunger Games" series. I really enjoy these books, they are well written, believable, and clever.

Hi-Times BBQ

Last night Erik and I ate BBQ at San Jose's Hi-Life BBQ. It was a little dissappointing, to be honest. The meat was a little dry, but the BBQ sauce was amazing. I enjoyed the selection of beer. The wait was crazy and the process was unclear. Worth doing on e, but I doubt I'd be back anytime soon. Too much hassle.

What's the deal with supermarket produce?

Erik and I buy our fruit and veggies from the farmers market, when possible. This past few weeks, however, there's been no farmers market to buy from. So I bought a bag of apples from the supermarket. I can't even explain how flavorless and icky they are. They're slightly bitter, too. And an apple from the farmers market is tart, sweet, flavorful. It's not a difference between organic or non-organic. It's the difference between picked when ready and picked way early and ripened in transit.

Lesson learned- farmers market all the way, baby.

Day 3

Day 3 without sugar. It's not been that hard, although I find myself wanting something sweet. So- fight through it. My go-to breakfast of an egg mug, a cup of veggies, and a little meat if I have it was delicious this morning, as was my cordon-blu last night for dinner.

I think I'll start leaving Erik little notes on the days I have to leave so early- but I'll have to work them out the night before.

Day 2

Still going strong with the no sugar. I have to keep this up. Also- eating paleo today. I've cleaned up the office some, I've baked a ton of bread, and I'm doing ok. A little tired.

Day 1

Ran/walked 5 miles.

Brewed our Red Ale.

Baked a ham.

Day 1_ no sugar.

Ate paleo.

Also, tracked my calories. We'll see what happens tomorrow.